Hurting

Why are you like this?
Why must you break my heart?
Pain hidden while my eyes mist,
While my heart is torn apart.

The rudeness I can deal with calmly,
The arrogance completely ignore,
Yet your silence is harming,
Ripping me apart at my very core.

My precious son living with me,
Never to be completely your mother,
My love for you, can't you see?
You keep pushing me away further.

My pain I can't express to you,
Words left unsaid that should be shared,
Not telling you my point of view,
Wanting you to know I have always cared.

Philippa Hope-Hornsey